i'll give a little testimony/introduction about myself here i guess.
so im a kid from iceland, i grew up with freezing cold winters and wayyyy too much silence. i always felt like i was outta place. i always smiled for photos. i always cracked jokes whenever i could. but inside the emptiness was heavyy, like no matter what i did, the darkness never actually left. the depression hit hard when my parents died, i convinced myself that my life had no meaning, that i was worthless (LTG reference), that i didn’t matter. at my lowest, i was suicidal and came to the conclusion that ending my life was the only way to make all the pain and suffering go away. it wasn't poetic, it definitely wasn't pretty, i was just numb. somewhere in that great pit of despair, when i had ran out of weed money and had about 2 bucks to my name with absolutely nothing and noone left in my life, i stumbled across Jesus. not in a flashy hallucination way, but like a flicker of light in the dark. i started reading the word of God, praying and crying out to the Lord at 3am. my faith in Jesus certainly didn’t erase any of my scars, but it gave me a reason to stick around. i started to take life one small step at a time, learning to forgive, learning to love not lust, learning to ask for help.
im not a perfect christian, i still make mistakes, i fall back into sin. however, im still healing, im only humannnnn after allllll lol. butttt... im glad to be here, walking forward, stride by stride, believing there’s purpose and meaning to my life even after the lonely nights. no matter if you are religious or not, just remember that you’re never alone, support is available, and reaching out can help a ton. God bless you.
right now, i don't know what else im going to do with this website but im open to suggestions as ill probably keep it as a lil passion project, soooo stay tuned for updates.